I have stood here for too long
And now both paths seem wrong
Fuck this fork in the road
And all the options it has shown
I should have known that the world
Doesn't have a welcome mat
Maybe I've gone through all my luck to find
I've Always been stuck here
PRE CHORUS:
Nope, I won't have it
I won't let myself die this way
Move over chance
Get the hell out fate
I'm taking the wheel
And by God, Providence
I won't be late.

CHORUS:
Maybe I've grown up
Or I'm still in the same year
But either way
I'm still leaving here alone.
Maybe I've used up
All that was left of me
But with it gone
Maybe I can rest in peace.

I'm leaving home
To find a home
I'm leaving home
to find a home

Maybe I've grown up
or I'm still in the same year
but either way
I'm still leaving here alone.

I'd tell you where I'm headed
But it's a past embedded
If there is a trail behind me
It's of all of the things I can;t be
Believe me when I tell you
I'm petrified of follow through
But I drove past the station
to the interstate contemplation
And when this light turns green
Then my record will be all clean

PRE CHORUS
CHORUS

Outro Poem:
I don't ever want a record
Of just how long it took
For my beating heart to stop
I don't ever want an EKG of mine
For some exploring stranger
To stumble on and fine
My home will never be a hospital bed
or my garden made of wilted visitation flowers
All I want is to be alone
Alone and in my head
So welcome me oblivion
Into my home at last